Something to do with my hands - Her space holiday

long story short… We got back together again just to break it off again a while after. I don’t regret that we got back together again, it lead to some good times but suddenly it just got to much again. I was reminded of why I didn’t want to stay with him anymore. Not just the cheating..  not just the lies, just felt like the relationship wasn’t what I wanted.

And he could not accept it this time either. He did not want to let me go. He says he loves me to much. But here’s a thought, if he did love me that much, wouldn’t he care about putting my happiness first then?

I said he didn’t make me happy, I said I’ve started to resent him for what he did, that I’ve started to lose motivation about doing things because I just think, why bother even… And I know it’s because of him. But he still didn’t want me to go. Not sure were I’m going with this just wanted to let it out.